Accepting the sadness.

I have tried everything. I’ve walked with an app that fills my head with zen music and guided thoughts. I’ve drunk enough herbal tea to put peppermint trees out of business. I’ve tried partying and the social events that should fill me with gratitude to exist. I have screenshots of positive quotes that elicit no…

So I’ve started Sixth Form

Hello petals. I hope everybody is doing ok and I’m aware I’ve not been the most active with social media lately but everything has been pretty crazy. A few weeks ago I got my GCSE results and I was amazed. Despite my OCD making studying a near impossible task and having to perform compulsions throughout…

Living with depression // Self care

I have decided to start a segment for my blog about Living with depression and offering advice to people who also struggle. I’ve wanted to post something about functioning with extreme depression but I’ve found that there is so much to say. Hopefully this will be helpful and please let me know if anybody has…

Why I notice everything.

According to everybody who knows me well, there are a few obvious things about me. Some of which are noted in files tucked away in psychologist’s offices, some of which are actually pretty irrelevant but just as obvious in everyday life. For instance, I’m pretty shit at admitting I’m mistaken or incorrect. I blame my…

The update you’ve all been asking for.

Hello guys. I’m aware my blog has been lacking in personal content recently, and if you follow my Instagram you’ll know I’ve not been in the best state mentally. I’m finally feeling better and I know everybody has been asking for an update so I’m sat here with a cup of coffee and my laptop,…

I spoke to a girl who used to run a Pro Ana page

My last post had an unexpected response. A girl messaged me pretty soon after I published it, and she talked about how Pro Ana was her entire life, and was the reason behind her developing anorexia. Whilst reading her message, I was intrigued by the confession, as she spoke about her experience with running a…

Pro Ana. My take.

I actually spoke to my sister Annie the other day and she asked what Pro Ana was. I didn’t see the point in bullshitting some PG answer so I told her my take of it all. I said ‘basically people who encourage anorexia, and extreme dieting. They think anorexia is a lifestyle.’ Kind of wish…

What not to say.

All the following statements were said directly to sufferers who follow my Instagram. ‘I mean you aren’t as bad as the PROPER anorexics, you know the people who are really scary thin”. ‘It’s just a phase’ ‘You’re not that skinny’. ‘You know there are children actually dying from hunger in Africa? You’ve not got a…

Nothing tastes as good.

There is something to be said about the way skinny feels. I’m still drawn to the sickening thrill of wearing clothes that sport the label ‘9-10 years’. The way jumpers would hang off my shoulder blades and I could see outfits growing as my shrinking body wasted away in their corpses. The fact I could…

How to help somebody who is struggling.

I got a message the other day, from somebody asking how they could help or support somebod who was struggling when nobody else really knew. The whole thing stumped me a little bit. I usually take any oppportunity to offer advice, as I have a whole load of little bits and pieces of experience and…