Abbie

Its no secret that I am basically a fan account for Abbie at times, but I can never find a way to put into words just how much she means to me. So I’m going to try. *serious cheese alert*. I’m not being melodramatic when I say that for about a year I didn’t really…

Study days.

Early mornings help. Not stupid early, but not lying in bed scrolling through a hundred tweets and putting off actually leaving my safe cosy nest of a duvet. Anywhere between 7 and 8 am usually works well with my internal clock. I always, always make my bed now. It’s the smallest little task and it’s…

A letter to 12 year old me.

Dear Casy, Hi. I want you, right now, to prepare yourself because, holy shit girl, you’re in for one hell of a ride. And I think you are well aware of that. You’re aware that those numbers on cellophane packets mean more to you than they should. You’re aware that your mind worries about things…

So many questions, so little time.

Hello my loves. So another Monday has been survived and we can safely say the toughest part of this week is over. I hope everyone is doing well, and is loving the autumnal weather! I have recently created a board on my Pinterest called ‘questions’, which, as the title may suggest, is quite literally a…

‘What do you do all day?’

Hello my loves. I laugh a lot about this question, because it’s fair enough. I’m out of school, have a very small social circle and really 12 hours sometimes seems an awful long time. I thought I’d do another one of these Day In The Life type things, but this one is going to be…

The questions everyone seems to want answered.

No numbers are mentioned on here. I am aware that so many people ask about this but it is a topic I feel very strongly about regarding with discretion as it can be so triggering for myself and others.  Hello my loves. i hope this week has been ok for everyone so far. So far…

The people who unintentionally save my life everyday #2

So a while back I did a post very similar to this. It was very mushy and all that but it gave me an opportunity to really be honest and vocalise my gratitude towards a few particular people. The internet is a very, very weird place. Yes, we all sat through those assemblies. ‘Never talk…

Changing therapists (say whaaaa)

A few months back the decision was made that I would be having an assessment by a psychotherapist. Now for those of you unfamiliar with my personality, me and change are not the best of friends. I am also a huge fan of my CBT therapist. I’ve been seeing her for about 18 months, so…

It was all lies.

One more. Two less. A little further, A little lower. A bit stronger, a bit smaller. Fading  Down four. Decrease 60. Up by an hour. Patience please. Don’t give up. Perfection awaits you. Don’t you want it? No Yes. Five less. Ten. Maybe 20? How about 50? Let me out Net. 500. Tomorrow will be…

The August Update – Puppies, relapse and finding motivation.

Happy September! I am buzzing today all because of a word on the calendar. But seriously? Autumn is finally upon us and I couldn’t be happier if I tried. Not only that it’s cold and frosty outside this evening – eek! So I have been kind of absent from blog recently and I am sorry…

How I deal with the unavoidable ‘Food Guilt’.

It’s anorexias speciality. The ‘why did you just eat that?!’. The ‘you just ruined everything’. It screams at you ‘1000 calories. Did you really just eat 1000 calories?!’. And no matter what you do, the voice doesn’t go anywhere. It gets a bit quieter, but it never leaves.  For me, this is the hardest thing…

This weeks eats. 

Hi to anyone reading. So this past week my food diary has been full of delicious bits and pieces I’ve tried. I’ve been struggling a bit with an increase in calories both psychologically and physically. My tummy really gets punished after a biggish meal. But I’ve tried to keep it up, even thought it is…