What not to say.

All the following statements were said directly to sufferers who follow my Instagram. ‘I mean you aren’t as bad as the PROPER anorexics, you know the people who are really scary thin”. ‘It’s just a phase’ ‘You’re not that skinny’. ‘You know there are children actually dying from hunger in Africa? You’ve not got a…

Nothing tastes as good.

There is something to be said about the way skinny feels. I’m still drawn to the sickening thrill of wearing clothes that sport the label ‘9-10 years’. The way jumpers would hang off my shoulder blades and I could see outfits growing as my shrinking body wasted away in their corpses. The fact I could…

How to help somebody who is struggling.

I got a message the other day, from somebody asking how they could help or support somebod who was struggling when nobody else really knew. The whole thing stumped me a little bit. I usually take any oppportunity to offer advice, as I have a whole load of little bits and pieces of experience and…

Why I’m a feminist.

You’re lucky women just want equality, and not revenge. Let me tell you what the word ‘feminism’ actually means.  “to define, establish, and achieve equality of genders.” I think people have this deluded idea of what a feminist is – perhaps the fact the word has ‘female’ interpreted in it, causes people to immediately try…

How to feel better.

Full credit to Abbie, as I stole this idea from her scribbles of blog titles in her old notebook. But this seems to encapsulate such a lovely and cosy vibe, and I also think this might offer simple advice for anybody struggling and needing some way to ease the pain. Open the windows or find…

What I lost to anorexia.

Depict it with the stigma, and you will reach the same answer. Weight. Obviously you lost weight. Because that’s what anorexia is. It’s losing weight. But it’s not just that. You lose essential body tissue and osseous matter density. Because when your body has used up all stored energy, it starts to absorb muscle. I…

Everybody knows somebody

With NEDAW fast approaching, I thought it would make sense to post something in line with the whole idea of spreading awareness, and everything else the next week will undoubtedly involve. I am a huge believer in spreading awareness about issues that are seen as ‘taboo’, but it can cause a lot of anxiety in…

Dear Change4Life

I was sitting by myself, finishing my evening snack, which I often struggle with, watching some crappy TV show to take my mind off of the overthinking as I threw the wrapper of my protein bar in the bin. I’m not great at watching TV; I tend to half listen in while I check my…

50 Things I want to do in 2018.

Hello petals – over the past few days I’ve been thinking of things I’d like to do achieve in 2018, as I am putting all my energy towards making this year better than these last few years. Some of these things are really small, some are pretty big, so prepare for a rambly post. Travel…

How to thrive

How to thrive like the beautiful bean you deserve to be. Eat whatever the fuck you crave. A pint of ice cream? Cheesy pasta? Grab your fork and dig in. If you’ve just eaten five meals and are still hungry – then eat something else. Listen to your body. If you’re hungry, physically or mentally,…

A fucked up society.

The stifling smoke of this world’s morality burning up in flames is starting to fill my lungs and labour my breathing. I know I’m not alone in feeling this – there is so much damage everywhere, maybe our minds are slowly developing an immunity to recognising it. The way your brain blocks out certain voices,…