‘Snap out of it’

So, take a breath. Now imagine you’re trapped in a small glass box. Your ankles and hands are chained to the interior, big and sturdy iron cables. There is no way out. Now the box starts filling with water, slowly at first, but then very, very quickly. You are attempting banging on the glass, yelling…

The day the monsters visited.

It was early September. My hair was longer and brain lighter. My eyes were full of brightness and a face full of life. My head was full of dreams and aspirations, goals and plans. Nothing phased me too much. I had everything sorted.  I was in the library. The day they visited. Head buried beneath…

A real care day for depressive episodes.

Uh oh – I can guess what you’re imagining this post to be. One of the stereotypical ‘lush baths and diptyque candle’ posts. The squeaky clean posts that label as ‘self-care’.  Don’t get me wrong – I love those types of posts and can spend hours trapped in a place where brushing your teeth is…

July loves.

Hi to anyone reading. So July was.. intense. It was a super busy and challenging 31 days. There were lots of highs and lows, but it’s been ok. I did a post like this for May and I read it yesterday and I had totally forgot I’d ever done it! So this is going to…

Why I stopped dancing.

For a very long time I wanted to be a ballerina. Yes, I was the classic toddler prancing around the shops, obsessed with ballet movies. I adored my pink tutu and refused to let anyone else near it. As I got bored of tip toeing around a studio I got into different styles when I…

I survived. Sort of. / A real chat. 

Hi guys. Well I can safely say I have survived ten days away on holiday. Ten days. That’s like 14,400 minutes (just asked Siri). So no it definitely did not go as planned and I’m definitely not sure how therapy will be. But… I did it? Sort of. Long story. I’m proud I did it…

Food Log.1

Hi to anyone reading. I hope you’re doing well! Sorry that I’ve been M.I.A for the past eight days – I’m actually on holiday. I say holiday. Holidays are supposed to be relaxing. This has not been relaxing. I’m not the best with holidays. I get very anxious and I restrict a lot so Eating…

Validation.

If there’s one thing that I seek more than anything in the world it is validation. Validation for literally everything. Whether that’s validation if my maths exam result is ‘good enough’, if my eating disorder is ‘bad enough’. I crave validation. Its the goal in literally everything I do. Validation from friends, family, people, everyone. …

50 questions you’ve never been asked tag 🌸

Hey there! So I am currently cosy after a long day – I don’t know why but I think it’s November outside and I’m loving it! I’ve also just eaten ‘pizza’ toast, which is just a childhood classic. Today I’ve decided to post  this tag, basically answering a load of random questions, that I may…

May in photos 

Is it just me who’s absolutely terrified by the prospect that we are already over half way through the year. 2018 is closer than 2016.. erm what?! For me the year almost stops in October, because I love love LOVE that time of year and it always goes so quickly. Less than 4 months till…

Summer Seasonal Affective Disorder (yes it’s a thing)

I have spent the last few summers miserable, irritable and tearful. Needless to say, it was difficult to distinguish whether I actually had an issue with summer, or was simply going through a rough patch with all the other disorders that decided to pop up now and then. Last Summer was quite definitely the least…

The unavoidable bloating- Anorexia recovery.

Fact: People bloat. Fact: It is normal for our stomatch to stretch after a full day of eating. Fact: You’re going to bloat. Even though it is absolutely one hundred percent normal and temporary, it doesn’t make bloating any less 1) Painful  2) Easy  3) Triggering. When you start increasing your calorie intake, you won’t…