50 questions you’ve never been asked tag 🌸

Hey there! So I am currently cosy after a long day – I don’t know why but I think it’s November outside and I’m loving it! I’ve also just eaten ‘pizza’ toast, which is just a childhood classic. Today I’ve decided to post  this tag, basically answering a load of random questions, that I may…

May in photos 

Is it just me who’s absolutely terrified by the prospect that we are already over half way through the year. 2018 is closer than 2016.. erm what?! For me the year almost stops in October, because I love love LOVE that time of year and it always goes so quickly. Less than 4 months till…

Summer Seasonal Affective Disorder (yes it’s a thing)

I have spent the last few summers miserable, irritable and tearful. Needless to say, it was difficult to distinguish whether I actually had an issue with summer, or was simply going through a rough patch with all the other disorders that decided to pop up now and then. Last Summer was quite definitely the least…

The unavoidable bloating- Anorexia recovery.

Fact: People bloat. Fact: It is normal for our stomatch to stretch after a full day of eating. Fact: You’re going to bloat. Even though it is absolutely one hundred percent normal and temporary, it doesn’t make bloating any less 1) Painful  2) Easy  3) Triggering. When you start increasing your calorie intake, you won’t…

A Day of Fear Food

I posted a photo on twitter the other day and said ‘Recovery, take 5’. I had therapy yesterday and something just, well, clicked. We were talking about how long I’ve been in therapy and how at the end of th day it’s up to me. I can’t rely on other people, and I’m going to…

Toast.

I used to love toast. For breakfast with layers of sweet honey, dripping over the sides, along with a coffee with a good amount of milk and sweetener. Or strawberry jam, the kind that is filled with berries that  explode on your tongue on a side dish along with your bowl of cereal and breakfast…

100 positives you will get from eating.

Looking for a sign to actually eat dinner this evening, to take a bite of that pizza or have that second scoop of ice cream? Or breaking a fast or are scared to have breakfast. Hopefully this could help.  Your body deserves nutrients and life. Food does not equal fat. 2000 calories is the calorie…

Another bundle of dreams

I think, I’ve been missing a really important thing. Particularly over the past few months, there’s been this huge downfall in recovering, eating disorder signs and obsessive behaviour. I got to a point in this unstable situation where I had no real, well, purpose. I withdrew from social events, then felt upset and lonely, everyone,…

Day in the life of an out of school diagnosed anorexic

Day in the life just didn’t seem to fit for today’s blog hence the slightly long winded title. I also am pretty sure I’ve posted a ‘Day in the Life’ blog before, but in reality they just get lost in the sea of ‘A Day in my squeaky clean, sitting in my local cafe for…

I have relapsed

I want to say and warn people that this post could be triggering. Please don’t read any further if you will be triggered by any of this. There is talk of relapse and anorexic behaviour. Stay safe.  Jesus I hoped I’d never write this blog. I’ve been sat here trying to think up a cosy…

The people who save my life. Everyday.

Look at me being all productive and getting two posts out today *takes a bow*. This particular one is so important even though it probably won’t seem it. If you’ve read this title you’re probably either thinking this is a click bait blog where I’m going to be talking about how Clinique skincare saved my…

What I Ate Today – Anorexia Recovery

— I’m going to be honest, my Eating has been going really well – the past weekend I didn’t calorie count and drank a huge Biscoff shake, along with chips and cookie dough and at least 2 Drive Thru dinners. I also finished this huge cookie dessert (it was literally double the size of my…