Everybody knows somebody

With NEDAW fast approaching, I thought it would make sense to post something in line with the whole idea of spreading awareness, and everything else the next week will undoubtedly involve. I am a huge believer in spreading awareness about issues that are seen as ‘taboo’, but it can cause a lot of anxiety in…

I am healing.

Healing is an art. It takes time. It takes practice. It takes love. – Pavana These wounds are finally starting to clot. The bruises are fading – purple embellishments slowly disintegrating. The twisted metal stuck deep in my flesh is finding it’s way to the surface – it hurts like hell, but I know it…

To the girl I was then.

When I was three years old my hair started falling out. Perhaps a humorous foreshadowmnet of the events that would entangle my family in several years time – but more medically correct, it was due to stress. If that wasn’t a warning flag to my mental instability, then who knows what was. I mean three…

Dear Change4Life

I was sitting by myself, finishing my evening snack, which I often struggle with, watching some crappy TV show to take my mind off of the overthinking as I threw the wrapper of my protein bar in the bin. I’m not great at watching TV; I tend to half listen in while I check my…

50 Things I want to do in 2018.

Hello petals – over the past few days I’ve been thinking of things I’d like to do achieve in 2018, as I am putting all my energy towards making this year better than these last few years. Some of these things are really small, some are pretty big, so prepare for a rambly post. Travel…

A fucked up society.

The stifling smoke of this world’s morality burning up in flames is starting to fill my lungs and labour my breathing. I know I’m not alone in feeling this – there is so much damage everywhere, maybe our minds are slowly developing an immunity to recognising it. The way your brain blocks out certain voices,…

2017 / It wasn’t all bad

You will probably hear the phrase ‘I can’t belive 2017 is almost over’ at least eighty times over the next few weeks, so I’m not going to dwell, but the thought of 2018 is actually sort of terrifying? Wasn’t January like, five days ago? I actually like the way the prospect of a fresh, clean…

Why didn’t anybody stop you?

‘Why didn’t anybody stop you?’  ‘Nobody noticed.’ I get really fucking upset when I think about this now, with a healthier mind. Throw myself a little pity party – banners blaring ‘How didn’t anybody see I was dying?’ ‘You all suck’. I look at pictures of me from three years ago and just want to…

Abbie

Its no secret that I am basically a fan account for Abbie at times, but I can never find a way to put into words just how much she means to me. So I’m going to try. *serious cheese alert*. I’m not being melodramatic when I say that for about a year I didn’t really…

Caffeinated thoughts #1

You may, or may not, recall me speaking about starting this little series quite a while ago. Truth be told, it got lost in a storm of half finished attempted blog posts that have managed to pile up in my drafts. But with the temperature dropping and the tint of festivity to the air, I…

Study days.

Early mornings help. Not stupid early, but not lying in bed scrolling through a hundred tweets and putting off actually leaving my safe cosy nest of a duvet. Anywhere between 7 and 8 am usually works well with my internal clock. I always, always make my bed now. It’s the smallest little task and it’s…