A letter to 12 year old me.

Dear Casy, Hi. I want you, right now, to prepare yourself because, holy shit girl, you’re in for one hell of a ride. And I think you are well aware of that. You’re aware that those numbers on cellophane packets mean more to you than they should. You’re aware that your mind worries about things…

So many questions, so little time.

Hello my loves. So another Monday has been survived and we can safely say the toughest part of this week is over. I hope everyone is doing well, and is loving the autumnal weather! I have recently created a board on my Pinterest called ‘questions’, which, as the title may suggest, is quite literally a…

‘What do you do all day?’

Hello my loves. I laugh a lot about this question, because it’s fair enough. I’m out of school, have a very small social circle and really 12 hours sometimes seems an awful long time. I thought I’d do another one of these Day In The Life type things, but this one is going to be…

The questions everyone seems to want answered.

No numbers are mentioned on here. I am aware that so many people ask about this but it is a topic I feel very strongly about regarding with discretion as it can be so triggering for myself and others.  Hello my loves. i hope this week has been ok for everyone so far. So far…

The people who unintentionally save my life everyday #2

So a while back I did a post very similar to this. It was very mushy and all that but it gave me an opportunity to really be honest and vocalise my gratitude towards a few particular people. The internet is a very, very weird place. Yes, we all sat through those assemblies. ‘Never talk…

The August Update – Puppies, relapse and finding motivation.

Happy September! I am buzzing today all because of a word on the calendar. But seriously? Autumn is finally upon us and I couldn’t be happier if I tried. Not only that it’s cold and frosty outside this evening – eek! So I have been kind of absent from blog recently and I am sorry…

How I deal with the unavoidable ‘Food Guilt’.

It’s anorexias speciality. The ‘why did you just eat that?!’. The ‘you just ruined everything’. It screams at you ‘1000 calories. Did you really just eat 1000 calories?!’. And no matter what you do, the voice doesn’t go anywhere. It gets a bit quieter, but it never leaves.  For me, this is the hardest thing…

‘Snap out of it’

So, take a breath. Now imagine you’re trapped in a small glass box. Your ankles and hands are chained to the interior, big and sturdy iron cables. There is no way out. Now the box starts filling with water, slowly at first, but then very, very quickly. You are attempting banging on the glass, yelling…

The day the monsters visited.

It was early September. My hair was longer and brain lighter. My eyes were full of brightness and a face full of life. My head was full of dreams and aspirations, goals and plans. Nothing phased me too much. I had everything sorted.  I was in the library. The day they visited. Head buried beneath…

A real care day for depressive episodes.

Uh oh – I can guess what you’re imagining this post to be. One of the stereotypical ‘lush baths and diptyque candle’ posts. The squeaky clean posts that label as ‘self-care’.  Don’t get me wrong – I love those types of posts and can spend hours trapped in a place where brushing your teeth is…

July loves.

Hi to anyone reading. So July was.. intense. It was a super busy and challenging 31 days. There were lots of highs and lows, but it’s been ok. I did a post like this for May and I read it yesterday and I had totally forgot I’d ever done it! So this is going to…

I survived. Sort of. / A real chat. 

Hi guys. Well I can safely say I have survived ten days away on holiday. Ten days. That’s like 14,400 minutes (just asked Siri). So no it definitely did not go as planned and I’m definitely not sure how therapy will be. But… I did it? Sort of. Long story. I’m proud I did it…